I just don't feel like myself lately...

Why is it that I'm sitting in my room right now watching a particular episode of Family Guy that I've seen a million times? My life has become a routine and it's really getting to me lately and I can't take much more of it. After working 5 days in a row (I had today off) it all just rushed at me and I think I might of had a mini melt down.

Friends and work right now have caused me some problems as of late and I just can't seem to take it much longer. I've been at my present job now for almost 9 months now and have made some new great friends there. One in particular I have become very close to and can tell her anything and I love her for that. It's really refreshing to have a new group of friends who share similar interests that I do. Our weekly thursday night bowling has become my favorite thing to do because we all have so much fun out together.

With some other friends I just don't know. I'm sick and tired of how certain people act and was really hoping their ways would change as they got older but apparently I was mistaken. I love when I ask questions and don't get answers.. I mean that it is cool right... no it is not! I'm sick and tired of being told how to act as well. You know I like the person I am and if others don't well then too damn bad. I'm not going to pretend I'm someone I'm not in order to gain the approval of others, sorry that's not how I was raised or who I am.

Well you know what I'm sick of it. I've been the 'nice guy' for all my life and ultimately what has it gotten me?

The more and more I think about it, I can't find an answer for that question. You know I've gone my whole life being nice and putting others first but lately it doesn't seem others are willing to do the same for me and I'm tired of trying.

Whether it's time for a new change of scenery or what I'm not sure but things in my life need to improve and while I fully realize it won't happen immediately I need to do something to fix it.

Thank goodness I have this blog to vent my anger and unhappiness otherwise I would go crazy.

So yeah, while this isn't my usual style of posting or topic, it had to be let out. So to those who read it, thanks.

TK